BEST THING THAT I DID FOR MYSELF WAS TAKING OFF MY MASK,AND START BEING UNAPOLOGETIC FOR WHO I REALLY AM

I came to the realisation that I am not perfect and me not being perfect made me enjoy every minute of it because with every mistake I make,I grow from it and become wiser.

I am 23 years of age,and I have spent half of my life wanting to be "cooler",wanting to be surrounded by the coolest people...and when that eventually happened,I realised that it was not me and began to tell myself the truth...that I was desperate for approval,I bought into everyone elses opinion but mine and I hardly listened to my own. I was just an in authentic version of myself.

I am not saying I am a black sheep or I am a venomous person towards other people,but I am going to out myself right now by confessing that my life,personality,relationship are far from perfect. As much as I have a whole lot to be grateful for...I am still trying to find my feet in all of it.

But I know,at the end of the day...my imperfections and my faults will all connect me to my true being...slowly but surely.

So,here is my list of my imperfect self

I get stressed and anxious
I get angry
I get Jealous(this only happens when it comes to my boyfriend)
I cry
I've made mistakes
I fight with my boyfriend
I get insecure
I get frustrated
I think little of myself
I don't put myself first.

There it is. Made a decision to share this with you because I myself,am not perfect and pretending to be something that I am not will not serve me at the end of the day. Trying to fit in and being perfect is exhausting so I would just rather be myself and play my role the best way I can,and by doing that...I will eventually not see my lists as fault but rather look at the list as me being human.

Like many other people...I battle to get it all together and when life throws me with a curve ball...I get up and dust myself up and start again....or continue where I left off.

So do yourself a favour and recommit to making your health and well being your number one priority

And be unapologetic about who you really are.

Do you want to out yourself with your imperfections? If so,do share them with me on this post. Acknowledge yourself for being you

Love and lipgloss
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BUHLIOLOGY

BUHLIOLOGY....A SUBJECT THAT I HAVE BEEN MAJORING IN

For the past few weeks, I have decided to hibernate in Bubuville, it was very much needed and as i was doing that I did a whole lot of de-cluttering when it comes to the people i keep in my life. And can i tell you that its been wonderful doing that thus far.

I took time out to experience the presence of God and withdraw from the presence of other people, and in doing so...God has been revealing through vision what He wants me to do because I gave Him my life and the work that He does in me He will see it, finish it until Jesus comes.(Sorry for going all Christian on you guys lol, just had to).  I can’t tell you how much I’ve grown as an individual, getting rid of toxic associations and just getting to know myself as a whole. And I must say, I have learned a lot about myself and still learning. So while I am at it, I shall continue to let my gifts slice everything in the atmosphere, and to always shine beyond any negativity, and know that there is NO competition to win a trophy because there are enough blessings for all of us.

And lastly, to go be what I was born to be, stand firm and DO ME!! And I WILL be happy because happiness is the BEST elixir for me.

Love and Lipgloss

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Resentment

         

I remember this one time,my friend and I were heading to lunch,as I was driving I decided to play my favourite Beyonce album of all times,Bday. Then we played a track called “resentment”,the silence in the car while the song was playing....we only had *sigh* moments because we couldn’t describe the severity of that song,the lyrics,the passion behind it when Beyonce was singing it.

I guess we felt that way because we both related to the song,and I am guessing any other girl can relate too to the song. (Yes, I am only speaking for ladies only here)

Listening to the song made me realise that, as much as we shove it under the carpet like it is nothing,we learned and grew from it but nothing takes away the scar of someone cheating on you...especially when you are giving your entire self and life to them..even when there probably isn’t anything much,your mind starts wondering and racing. It is sad and it hurts.

Even hurts more to make someone who is so beautiful,so beautifully minded,hearted and spirited,to even wonder what it is they are not giving or when someone they are giving their soul to seems to not be satisfied by so much. Never mind brains hey,a whole heart full of love,charisma and spirit...all of that for a quick come on some filthy girl. Not cool at all

I guess we learn from our experiences. I may not be perfect myself but one thing I know about myself is that I will NEVER make someone pay the price for being a loving significant other. 

Anyway,do listen to the song so that you’ll get an idea of what I am talking about

Love and lipgloss

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I LOVE MY JOB ON BIG BROTHER

Working for Big Brother has and still is a great experience I would not trade for anything. Being watched by the whole of Africa is something so phenominal.

Basically I am like the new age lottery girl,I am that girl who does random nominations every Sunday for the show....so like I kind of have the power to choose who leaves the house...lucky me LOL!

Its been a great experience,it might look small to you but i definately do not despise my small beginnings. I see all of this s a working progress.

Here is a clip that will show you a bit of what I do every Sunday night.

Love and lipgloss
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Zambia trip

The Zambia trip was not only work but it completely changed my life and I am saying thank you to Jo-ann Strauss.

I went to Zambia for the Jo-Ann Strauss presenter search competition because I had made it to the top 4 and boy did I not have the time of my life, it was beyond magical. I learned a lot about the television industry and myself as a whole.
 Life changing is very big and that’s what happened to me.I realised that I am building block that fits into a much larger picture that will make this country work and I appreciate where I come from more. And I have also realised that life is too short for trivial things.

I appreciate the space that I am in mentally now because I now realize that self image goes way deeper than what lies on the surface and what people perceive of it and I am only as good as I am and my limitations are often self inflicted. There are many opportunities out there and they are waiting to be seized and only if you are positive and driven will you conquer and I honestly see wonders in me.
Jo-Ann and Bonang shared a whole lot of things and the most important thing about what they shared was MY take on it. And this was my take...

Friends are friends, some will be in your line of work..some will be completely out. It is certain attributes in a person that we look for and will attract us to them. It is always harder to have close friends that want the same thing as you, jealousy will always suffice because they will always be in a competition and there’s bound to be winners and losers and people do not always posses the necessary maturity to rise above certain failures in life. In fact, some people go through their lives competing so hard for the same things as their friends that they completely lose themselves. So with that being said,I am reviewing the relationships I have in my life,some I will need to cut and some I will need to grow and it is surely not a difficult thing to do.

I now know that I am capable of more and not afraid of challenging myself to greatness
Thank you to Jo-Ann for this AMAZING opportunity. I appreciate her so much and may God elevate her every being. I now know that I am not short of role models and mentors

Love and lipgloss
xxxxx

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